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Category: Adultery and Abandonment

  • Are You Stuck in a Miry Bog Too?

    A lot of people have told me lately that I’m too hard on myself. That I refer to myself as a mess way too much. I believe them. The problem is that I feel like a mess…I feel like I just can’t get my life together…any part of it. I told a friend recently that…

  • Loving the Unlovable…Seriously Unlovable

    A few weeks ago I posted about being done.   These past several weeks have been a bit difficult with regard to my attitude about my ex-husband.  I forgave him 3 years ago, but sometimes I still get annoyed with him.  Sometimes I just want him to be nice. And sometimes I want him to just…

  • My Peace Symbol

    Peace. That peace symbol is all over the place.  I see it on everything.  It’s difficult to avoid sometimes.  I don’t particularly care for it to be honest.  It doesn’t really speak peace to me. It reminds me more of a time when there wasn’t peace…when people stood less for true peace and more for…

  • Being Right and Other Wrongs

    Nothing has done greater damage to our Christian testimony than our trying to be right and demanding right of others. We become preoccupied with what is and what is not right. We ask ourselves, Have we been justly or unjustly treated? And we think thus to vindicate our actions. But that is not our standard.…

  • Anyone Else Feel Done?

    Today I feel done. I am done. Done with disrespect and disobedience and difficulties. Done with trying to reason with teenagers. Done with trying to reign in kindergarteners. Done with trying to make decisions. Done with trying to get organized. Done with cleaning up the mess my ex-husband has made.  Done with trying to understand…

  • Repeat Offender…Me

    Isn’t it just the way…when you start talking a lot about something, it becomes something big in your life?  Even if it already was a big thing. I’ve been really blessed to share a lot about my story lately.  And a big part of my story is forgiveness.  I can’t overemphasis its importance in my…

  • Struggling with Struggle

    Struggle I think I use that word too much.  I think I should use a different word more often. Maybe…conquering.  Don’t feel much like a conqueror.  And yet, God tells me I am.  “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”  Romans 9:37  More?  More than conquerors?  Mind-boggling. …

  • Leaving is Not an Option…This Family is About Staying

    There is something profoundly painful about a child saying they want to leave. It cuts to the core. I know that when my children say things like, “I’ll just go live with Dad,” or “I’ll just go live with insert name” or even “I want a different mommy,” it’s more about being frustrated than actually…

  • Do You Welcome Inconvenience?….me neither.

    Sometimes being a single mom is so inconvenient. The other night – a school night – when I should have been rocking little ones to sleep, we were just finding our seats at the varsity basketball game where my oldest daughter was cheering. I love watching my daughter cheer…she rocks at it!  But it’s just no…

  • Hope in the New Year

    Happy 2013!  I saw something funny online yesterday.  It said, “My New Year’s resolution is to remember to write 2013.”  Wouldn’t it be nice if that was all that we needed to resolve to do?  I have so much I want to change about my life that I shudder to think what my resolution list would…