That peace symbol is all over the place. I see it on everything. It’s difficult to avoid sometimes. I don’t particularly care for it to be honest. It doesn’t really speak peace to me.
It reminds me more of a time when there wasn’t peace…when people stood less for true peace and more for fake peace.
I’m looking for the real deal. I want Jesus peace.
Lately I’ve had a lot of people ask is there any relief from all the emotions and feelings of adultery, abandonment and divorce. My answer is yes. Yes.
But what I’m finding is that peace in a sense is something I have to fight for…I have to choose.
Turn away from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it. Psalm 34:14
Sometimes I feel more like a whirling dervish (what is a whirling dervish anyway?) I feel all twisted up in knots and a bit frantic inside.
The most difficult part is the way I feel. I feel deep sorrow at times. Sorrow that I can’t change what has happened or its effects, especially on my children. And when those crushing feelings come crashing in…maybe I should say, crushing in…I just want to run away. Unfortunately, I’m pretty sure all those blasted feelings would run with me. I’m not a terribly fast runner so I’m sure they’d catch up even if I had a head start.
From the beginning of this nightmare, I’ve wanted to escape the emotional component. I didn’t want to feel what I was feeling…the sorrow was so intense. Betrayal is brutal. Now I think I struggle more with a profound sadness at the loss of what I thought would never be lost and the injustice of the whole situation. And believe me there is a fair amount of injustice.
And yet, I’m reminded of my Savior. His willingness to suffer injustice for me. To feel intense sorrow for me. To know betrayal for me. To allow Himself to be punished for me. To turn the other cheek and forgive for me. What He suffered for me…I can’t even grasp it.
In no way am I attempting to compare my suffering with Christ’s – there is no comparison. I just take great comfort in knowing that He understands all that I feel. He gets me.
I want to be Christ-like, but dang it, sometimes I just really want to kick something.
Kicking things is bad.
That’s when I need peace…when I gotta seek peace and pursue it. Find it and grab it.
I keep being brought back again and again to Philippians 4:6-7. Do not be anxious about anything (my children, my future, my situation with my ex…life) but in everything (no matter how wonderful or absolutely NOT wonderful) through prayer and petition (on my knees, on my face, in the car, in the shower, at the kitchen sink…) with thanksgiving (for everything – the good, the bad, and the ugly) present your requests to God (all of ‘em). And the peace of God (which comes from Him and only Him), which surpasses all understanding (it makes no sense to have peace when life is so complicated and challenging), will guard your hearts (all those funky emotions) and your minds (all those crazy thoughts) in Christ Jesus (as always, anything good that happens in life is from Jesus).
That peace I long for…it’s available. It’s God’s peace in Christ Jesus. And it comes when I focus on Him.
You keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:3-4
My mind stayed. I looked up “stayed” in my thesaurus. Similar words were: resided, settled, lodged, dwelled, stopped, abided, inhabited, have your home. And my favorite was “to stand firm”
Recently I spoke at the MomLife Bootcamp about dressing like a warrior. I focused on Ephesians 6:10-20. I LOVE those verses.
Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. Ephesians 6:13-15 (ESV)</p>
I think those verses fit perfectly with my mind stayed on Christ. The Amplified Bible says, “to stand (firmly in your place). Stand therefore (hold your ground).” I envision it as planting my feet and being unwilling to move. I want to plant my gaze firmly on Christ and not let it waver from Him. That’s peace.
It’s like Peter walking on the water during the storm. As long as his gaze was fixed on Jesus, he actually walked on the water! How cool is that! But as soon as he looked at the swirling waves he began sinking. I’m the same way…if I focus on my circumstances they overwhelm me. I want to focus on Christ so that He overwhelms me with His love and peace! Ahhh…the peace which passes all understanding…even in the midst of storms and trials. He is so good to give it.
Maybe I need to figure out my own peace symbol. Maybe that cool ancient fish symbol. (You know that one we stick to our cars and hope nobody notices when we drive like crazy people.) I think that works. When I see it maybe I’ll take a breath, say a prayer, thank my Savior, and let His peace wash all over me. Sounds like a really good plan.
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Oh my goodness, I so needed to hear about peace this week. I also have been struggling more with wanting the frustration of things to just go away and not let them bother me. I know it is easier hoped for then actually done. If I figure it out I will let you know, but going to God has been so good and definitely kept me from going crazy!
Take care and thank you so much for your support.