At first glance it might seem like it should read “up to my nose.” That makes more sense – I’m up to my nose in issues, challenges, difficulties, laundry, dishes, clutter, and children. BUT that’s not what I want for me. That’s not what I want for anyone. What I want is to focus on the Lord and not on all the junk in my life.
That doesn’t mean that I ignore the millions of things on my to-do list or that I live in a state of denial about the circumstances of my life. It means that I choose joy. I choose to have the perspective that God can use even this ridiculous life of mine for good.
So let me introduce myself…
I’m Sue – single mom to 5 kids ages 4 to 17. I been all kinds of mommas — stay-at-home mom, working mom, homeschool mom, foster mom, adoptive mom, and now single mom.
My single mom journey began about 3 years ago when my husband jumped ship. I was completely ambushed by his adultery. I fought hard for my marriage and family, but unfortunately I’d lost it before I knew there was even a problem. There’s part of me that’s glad I was blissfully unaware of his issues and thought we were happily married. I had a 17 year long happy marriage – that’s something to be thankful for.
I hope to share about how God brought us through and cared for us – my children and me. It’s been a stormy trip but we are hanging on, growing stronger and heading in the right direction.
The word that most accurately describes me is overwhelmed (and, depending on what I’m overwhelmed by – that can be a good or bad thing).
I could describe some other things in my world too.
My house is sticky.
My life is messy.
My family is beautiful.
It has taken me a little while to get to the point of being able to say that this broken family is beautiful, but I am so there. Broken implies that there is something that needs to be fixed…actually that word best describes my car and parts of my house…but I hesitate to use it to describe my family.
We are wounded, scarred, bruised and battle weary, but we are not broken.
My children and I struggle…we definitely each have our issues (pretty sure I have the most), but in the midst of the chaos we have found a peace and preciousness that I don’t think we would’ve been able to comprehend apart from the hurting.
It’s challenging to live this single mom life…I desperately want to be a godly woman, but so often I’m just an overwhelmed, frustrated, exhausted woman. Reality conflicts with my vision for my family.
I’m determined to put on my big girl pants and just do it…just live this life. So that is my hope for this blog, that we will just live this life together…the beautiful, the difficult, the challenging, and the hopeful. That throughout the minutes…the seconds of the day…we will seek joy.
I hope you’re okay that I’m gonna share lots of stuff — the calm water and the hurricanes. I’m gonna do my best to be real about my personal struggles and my thoughts on dealing with divorce, adultery, abandonment, single parenting and all the issues that collide in our lives because of those blasted things.
My hope is that we have fun even as we hold on for dear life! Our ankles might get wet at times, our knees might feel a splash, and we might find some tears in our eyes, but Dearest, we will keep returning our gaze to Jesus and know that He will do beautiful things in our lives and our families.
In His Care,