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Category: Trust

  • A Deep Breath

    There is a place I find myself…sometimes…it is no longer a place of deep grief, but of deep sighing. A place where I find myself needing  the strengthing of a deep breath, the focus of a whispered prayer, and the hope of an all-powerful God. In the past, this place has been about me…about my…

  • The Before…and After

    God has brought me far. Some may think I need to be farther along on this path of healing and hoping and growing. But I believe I am. I’m much farther along than I was before my life changed quickly and irrevocably. I’m much farther along than the days before… Before  …            after So much…

  • Trusting Him with Them

    I’m sitting outside on my back porch with my laptop, my Bible, and 3000 MOSQUITOES!!!! It is so beautiful out here – cool breeze, sunny, and quiet!  I love it. But I HATE these mosquitoes!  They have even bitten my hands!  It is very difficult to scratch my fingers and type. My 14 year old…

  • Spilling Guilt

    I’m sitting at the pool feeling guilty because I’m not in the pool playing with my daughters, but we can only stay a few minutes before I have to leave to take my son to a school function.  I have spent the majority of my summer in the car and I’m sooooo tired of driving. …

  • Changing Me

    What if something could change so that I wasn’t so very overwhelmed? What would it be? I’m not talking about the things that would make life easier like not having to work, having a nanny and a cook, or receiving a ton of money.  I’m talking about the realistic things.  The things that could actually…

  • A Moment of Still

    A long wooden farm table, enough to seat a quiverful and some friends, tea in the cup my oldest daughter chose for me while at the beach with friends, a highlighted, underlined and well-loved Bible open before me, and quiet…my perfect morning. God has blessed me this morning with this beautiful moment of still. A…

  • Would you rather trust?

    The other day at bed, my littlest girl and I prayed a bold prayer for a contract on our home…that night.  She doubts God right now.  She doesn’t see things changing…she doesn’t see God working. We all really need something to change soon, but God doesn’t seem to be changing anything right now. I wanted…

  • It’s In A Box…Somewhere

    My mom’s garage is packed almost to the ceiling with all my belongings.  I thought when we were loading them in that there was some sort of organizational plan. Yeah…nope. There might have been, but I’ve messed it up with all my digging and moving and climbing around the mounds of stuff! And I can’t…

  • Expecting Great Things

    I have had a lot of time to sit these past few days.  I’ve been in ERs and ICUs for three days and although my tushy is tired, my heart is being moved continually by the time I’ ve had to ponder His word and to consider my life, my family, my hopes, my struggles,…

  • All of It and More

    I have started no less than three blogs this week.   I have thought of about fifteen I want to write.  Time has been limited so I had hoped yesterday would be the day to put words to page, but God had different plans. I spent the day at the hospital with my mom.  It is…