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Category: Divorce Survival

  • Me and My Stuff at His Feet

    A few years ago I gave my testimony at church and sang the Casting Crown’s song, “At His Feet.” It fit so well with where God had brought me. He had brought me to a good place. But I’ve stepped away from that place many times carrying what I should have laid at His feet.…

  • Do You Really Want to be Where I Am?

    “I wish I could get to where you are…I still feel so hopeless, sad, or angry.” Whenever I hear that I want to say, “Trust me, you DO NOT want to be where I am!” I struggle a lot with things. I have moments where I feel like disaster is imminent…where I can’t possibly do…

  • Do You Feel Loved?

    Today I feel loved. Lately it’s been difficult to grasp that I’m lovable…that anyone could really and truly love me. And yes I know that God loves me…perfectly, relentlessly, beautifully, unconditionally, and passionately…all the ways I want to be loved. But I guess after my husband left, I’ve wanted someone to love me – to…

  • Surviving the Storm with Some Sanity

    Surving the Storm with my Sanity God keeps reminding me that He is the answer.  That living without Him and time in His Word, just doesn’t work well.  I forget that His yoke is easy and His burden is light…my yoke is heavy and crushing at times. Even if you can’t handle your life,  I pray…

  • Am I Really a Wimp?

    There was a time in my life when my ex-husband and I would joke about our lack of sleep. Our little saying was, “Sleep is for wimps.” I’m here to say….I’M A WIMP!!! I want sleep so badly…so very badly. I can’t remember the last time I got a really truly good night’s sleep. I…

  • Am I a minute from angry? Or a minute from peace?

    “Momma! Look there’s a tea with the word Relax on it! You should get that!” “Yes. Yes I should!” I replied. And although the tea is very yummy and I’ve had several glasses, it has not helped me relax…or I’m just too stressed for words or tea or anything… I hate being stressed. I can…

  • Wading Into the Waves Holding My Savior’s Hand

    Wading Into the Waves Holding My Savior’s Hand Just saw that my newest blog is up at MomLifeToday.  I hope you enjoy it. I’d also like to ask for prayer as I begin a new book proposal!  Working on Chapter 1…draft number 1,365,279…just kidding, it just feels that way! I’m so excited about the idea…

  • A Quiver Full of Wonderful

    Recently I was interviewed for an article in an absolutely beautiful Christian magazine. It was a pleasure to speak to the interviewer and I hoped that my message would be a blessing to anyone who read the article. Unfortunately, I was not blessed by reading the article. I was distraught. I was so surprised by…

  • Are You Stuck in a Miry Bog Too?

    A lot of people have told me lately that I’m too hard on myself. That I refer to myself as a mess way too much. I believe them. The problem is that I feel like a mess…I feel like I just can’t get my life together…any part of it. I told a friend recently that…

  • Loving the Unlovable…Seriously Unlovable

    A few weeks ago I posted about being done.   These past several weeks have been a bit difficult with regard to my attitude about my ex-husband.  I forgave him 3 years ago, but sometimes I still get annoyed with him.  Sometimes I just want him to be nice. And sometimes I want him to just…