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Category: Suffering

  • Day 7 – Where Have All the Snow Days Gone?

    I have to admit being a little disappointed that I didn’t get a call for a snow day or a two-hour delay today…it is definitely a Monday  🙂 I’m ready though and willing to start the week off well.  A little sore from my weekend of skiing – no broken bones and I didn’t fall…

  • Day 4 – In Spite of Me

    I few years ago I had the privilege of leading a women’s retreat for a church I used to attend.  The title was “In Spite of Me.”  (I cannot take the credit for the title because my friend Phoebe came up with it.)  I loved it.  I still do, because my salvation is totally in…

  • Day 3 – Armed and Ready

    I have been so excited to get into God’s word that last night I almost just stayed up past midnight getting started.  I probably should have…might have been divine prompting…because this morning has been one mishap after another.  I’m on outfit number 3.  I apparently have 6 single socks with no partner…I searched with that…

  • It’s Monday…A good time to rejoice

    Day 2 (woohoo!) Last night I attended a Bible study on Deuteronomy – I’m loving that book!  I wouldn’t have ever thought that I could get so much out of that book – but Jesus is everywhere in Scripture!  It is such a cool thing to seek and find Him! Last night we talked about…

  • The Burden of Blessing

    Today I am at my home and it is quiet and peaceful and I’m feeling blessed to be here.  The kids are sleeping soundly (and late woohoo!!)  I debated if I should enjoy this blissful quiet asleep or awake.  I opted for awake.  So rarely do I get a moment of solitude and quiet.  I’m…

  • I Need Therapy…of sorts.

    This is gonna sound funny….but I feel like I’ve written all this before…its like deja vu in blogging – which is weird.   So if I have said this all before, word for word, forgive me please.   It totally is where I am apparently AGAIN. Right now I should be preparing for my first…

  • My Life…Living It

    Thank you so much for all your encouraging words and prayers.  I feel badly that I have used this blog so often to share my struggles, and lately not as much my blessings. I kinda feel like I’m just plugging along waiting for God to “fix” some things.  He definitely doesn’t work on my schedule…at…

  • Why not talk to God?

    I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me.  I kept telling Him…

  • Who Am I Going With?

    Who Am I Going With?

    Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired, and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel…

  • Count it all what?

         I’ve been working for over a week on a post about counting it all joy.  And honestly I’m still unsure that I truly understand it as much as I’d like, but I decided that maybe what I need to do is share and see where God takes us… Today I have two meetings…