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Category: Single Parenting

  • Do I ever have a good week?

      I was asked this morning. “Do I ever have a good week?”  And my answer is, “Absolutely!” I absolutely have good weeks…but not easy weeks.  I have no easy weeks at this point in my life.  And, to be honest, these past several months have been the hardest of my life in many ways. Unexpectedly…

  • Awful weeks…beware.

    We have all had those weeks. You know the ones…where not a single thing goes well.  Where awful seems to be the word that describes most things, if not all things. Last week would qualify as one of those weeks.  Awful, awful, awful. But in just a few short days God has provided some relief…some…

  • Enough to be Happy and Healthy

       Last evening I had the pleasure of sitting with an eighty-three year old gentleman at a church dinner in the fellowship hall of a lovely little Baptist church.  He was so sweet and kind.  A fellow that clearly had worked hard all his life.  He told me about his grandchildren and attending the dedication…

  • The Burden of Blessing

    Today I am at my home and it is quiet and peaceful and I’m feeling blessed to be here.  The kids are sleeping soundly (and late woohoo!!)  I debated if I should enjoy this blissful quiet asleep or awake.  I opted for awake.  So rarely do I get a moment of solitude and quiet.  I’m…

  • I Need Therapy…of sorts.

    This is gonna sound funny….but I feel like I’ve written all this before…its like deja vu in blogging – which is weird.   So if I have said this all before, word for word, forgive me please.   It totally is where I am apparently AGAIN. Right now I should be preparing for my first…

  • My Life…Living It

    Thank you so much for all your encouraging words and prayers.  I feel badly that I have used this blog so often to share my struggles, and lately not as much my blessings. I kinda feel like I’m just plugging along waiting for God to “fix” some things.  He definitely doesn’t work on my schedule…at…

  • Hanging by a Thread

    Tonight was exceedingly rough.  I really dislike those nights.  So instead of sleeping I decided to write.  I can’t sleep anyway…don’t want to wake up any friends…and I’ve already poured out my heart to God face first in the carpet. I’m back to those days. My face in the carpet days. I don’t have a…

  • Strength for the Weary Warrior

    Years ago I lead a women’s retreat called “How to Dress Like a Warrior.” Lately I have felt anything but warrior-like.  If I am a warrior, I’m definitely a weary warrior. Today I reread Ephesians 6:10-11 Finally be strong in the LORD and in his mighty power.  Put on the full armor of God, so that…

  • Why not talk to God?

    I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me.  I kept telling Him…

  • Who Am I Going With?

    Who Am I Going With?

    Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired, and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel…