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Category: Prayer

  • Do I ever have a good week?

      I was asked this morning. “Do I ever have a good week?”  And my answer is, “Absolutely!” I absolutely have good weeks…but not easy weeks.  I have no easy weeks at this point in my life.  And, to be honest, these past several months have been the hardest of my life in many ways. Unexpectedly…

  • Awful weeks…beware.

    We have all had those weeks. You know the ones…where not a single thing goes well.  Where awful seems to be the word that describes most things, if not all things. Last week would qualify as one of those weeks.  Awful, awful, awful. But in just a few short days God has provided some relief…some…

  • My Life…Living It

    Thank you so much for all your encouraging words and prayers.  I feel badly that I have used this blog so often to share my struggles, and lately not as much my blessings. I kinda feel like I’m just plugging along waiting for God to “fix” some things.  He definitely doesn’t work on my schedule…at…

  • Hanging by a Thread

    Tonight was exceedingly rough.  I really dislike those nights.  So instead of sleeping I decided to write.  I can’t sleep anyway…don’t want to wake up any friends…and I’ve already poured out my heart to God face first in the carpet. I’m back to those days. My face in the carpet days. I don’t have a…

  • Why not talk to God?

    I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me.  I kept telling Him…

  • Who Am I Going With?

    Who Am I Going With?

    Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired, and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel…

  • Did I Get This Right?

    I’ve been longing to write for weeks…feels like months… About 7 months ago I began taking classes in order to get my teaching license and hopefully a Masters in education (I don’t even know how to write it – Masters, masters, Master’s or master’s – and is education capitalized?). I’m enjoying the classes, but I…

  • Are You Feeling Toddlerish? I Have Some Fruit That Can Help.

    It’s official.  I’m 5 years old. I’m fussy.  I’d like to stomp my feet.  I could plop down on my bum and cry. And I definitely don’t feel like sharing. I feel like I’ve shared quite enough already. I’ve long said…well, 5 years long…that it’s important not to make our children feel badly about spending…

  • A Father’s Love…

      Tomorrow is Father’s Day. It’ll be my first Father’s Day without my dad.  He passed away in September. Dad was an amazingly humble man.  Generous.  Honorable.  Loyal.  Sacrificial. Dad was a West Point grad, an Army officer who served his country with distinction, a loving husband for over 60 years, and a father to…

  • Feeling a Little Less than Full?

    Does it ever feel like what you do is never enough? Today I did something nice for one of my children and another child got exceedingly angry at me.  As if I have done nothing for them…as if I have only chosen to bestow blessings on one child and left the others with nothing. I…