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Author: Sue Birdseye

  • My Life…Living It

    Thank you so much for all your encouraging words and prayers.  I feel badly that I have used this blog so often to share my struggles, and lately not as much my blessings. I kinda feel like I’m just plugging along waiting for God to “fix” some things.  He definitely doesn’t work on my schedule…at…

  • Hanging by a Thread

    Tonight was exceedingly rough.  I really dislike those nights.  So instead of sleeping I decided to write.  I can’t sleep anyway…don’t want to wake up any friends…and I’ve already poured out my heart to God face first in the carpet. I’m back to those days. My face in the carpet days. I don’t have a…

  • Strength for the Weary Warrior

    Years ago I lead a women’s retreat called “How to Dress Like a Warrior.” Lately I have felt anything but warrior-like.  If I am a warrior, I’m definitely a weary warrior. Today I reread Ephesians 6:10-11 Finally be strong in the LORD and in his mighty power.  Put on the full armor of God, so that…

  • Leaps of Faith or Waiting on the Lord?

    Sometimes life comes at ya kinda fast, doesn’t it? I feel like for the last 4 weeks I’ve done nothing but rush and run and rush some more. I made decisions…took leaps of faith…and God opened doors just when I thought I was going to hit another wall. My journal has been full of questions…

  • Why not talk to God?

    I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me.  I kept telling Him…

  • Who Am I Going With?

    Who Am I Going With?

    Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired, and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel…

  • Did I Get This Right?

    I’ve been longing to write for weeks…feels like months… About 7 months ago I began taking classes in order to get my teaching license and hopefully a Masters in education (I don’t even know how to write it – Masters, masters, Master’s or master’s – and is education capitalized?). I’m enjoying the classes, but I…

  • Are You Feeling Toddlerish? I Have Some Fruit That Can Help.

    It’s official.  I’m 5 years old. I’m fussy.  I’d like to stomp my feet.  I could plop down on my bum and cry. And I definitely don’t feel like sharing. I feel like I’ve shared quite enough already. I’ve long said…well, 5 years long…that it’s important not to make our children feel badly about spending…

  • A Father’s Love…

      Tomorrow is Father’s Day. It’ll be my first Father’s Day without my dad.  He passed away in September. Dad was an amazingly humble man.  Generous.  Honorable.  Loyal.  Sacrificial. Dad was a West Point grad, an Army officer who served his country with distinction, a loving husband for over 60 years, and a father to…

  • The Process of Forgiveness: Steps 1 to 70×7

     Recently I’ve had a few people tell that if I’ve forgiven my husband I should be in a better place.  From what I’ve heard I shouldn’t be angry at him again.  The only problem with this idea is that I gotta deal with the man and he’s difficult so that’s gonna be real hard. It…