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Tag: decisions

  • Don’t Fence Me Out

    I have fond memories of my dad singing little ditties as he went about his day. Most were a little tongue and cheek, and all made me laugh. One he often sang, I’m sure to my mom’s delight, was “Don’t Fence Me In”… “Oh, give me land, lots of landUnder starry skies aboveDon’t fence me…

  • Living Strong

    I’ve been thinking about strength lately, mostly because I really need some. I’ve been praying about it a lot too. And I realized that I’ve been living under the assumption that at some point God will just zap me with strength so I can get busy doing all the things I think I need to…

  • Don’t Worry…Just Walk

    This weekend was such a blessing. It set me up for a good attitude Monday…even with the sleep deprivation factor. That factor is just life. I was joking with my daughter that I’d look so much younger if the past 6 years hadn’t happened.  I’d be less stressed and more rested…but alas, the wrinkles are…

  • Hanging by a Thread

    Tonight was exceedingly rough.  I really dislike those nights.  So instead of sleeping I decided to write.  I can’t sleep anyway…don’t want to wake up any friends…and I’ve already poured out my heart to God face first in the carpet. I’m back to those days. My face in the carpet days. I don’t have a…

  • Why not talk to God?

    I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me.  I kept telling Him…

  • Who Am I Going With?

    Who Am I Going With?

    Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired, and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel…

  • Got Direction?

    Does anyone else have a pile of book on or around their nightstand?  Mine is getting to the point of ridiculous. Not only that but there are books on the chest at the foot of my bed, stacked in bookshelves throughout my house, and in various bags I carry around in the off chance I’ll…

  • Looking for Peace in all the Wrong Places

    I believe I’m carrying burdens I wasn’t meant to, but I don’t know how to let them go. People are always advising me to just trust God and let go of the worry.  I’m trying to…I truly am. I know I can trust God. I think I can let go of the worry. But somewhere…

  • Growing My Grassy Garden and Other Things

    I’m a gardener-wannabe.  I have so many friends who have flourishing gardens.  Alas, I have a black thumb when it comes to gardening.  No one truly has believed me until now.  This summer, I have proof.  And it isn’t even the dead cherry tree in the side yard.   My yard is full of clover and…

  • This Not So Exaggerated Life

    The past 6 days…ugh. Here are the highlights: 1 baby root canal 2 dental appointments 2 cars that both failed inspection 4 new Suburban tires 1 very rude car mechanic 1 broken AC condensations thingy – wet basement 1 dead cherry tree 3 sick children 2 unexpected massive medical bills 1 unexpected doctor’s appointment 2…